It’s you. A
breath in a deep slumber. So calm. Unattached. Untouched.
It’s not
when you showed all the things you’re proud of but when you bared your
imperfections, scars, and flaws. That’s what I see in love.
Then a
little promise I vowed. I’ll deal with it. I’m in. So I wonder then, will you? Hmm? But then again, isn’t it selfish?
Questioning uncertain thing while I even uncertain about myself. Am I really
in?
Maybe it’s
not love, but it’s much more than a friendship. Bestfriend maybe?
Whatever it
is, I cherish it. Every little unnoticed moment, with some idiotic, stupid but
caring, loving and sweetness you showed but hiding it, like it doesn’t a big
deal, but it is, for me.
Then I decide
to let go. Like always, before it’s too late.. because you know, I kinda having
trouble with it. Maybe we’re too afraid. Are we? Or maybe we’re trying to feel
nothing at all so later on we all get fixed.
So I’ll
ground myself in peace first. Sorting some stuff. Pause… and maybe then, I’ll
stop. That’s clear, right?
Cuap – cuap
:
Kak R tahun
ini ukmppd and I’m pretty sure you’ll make it oneshoot for godsake wowwwwwww
he’ll be the hottest doctor in this entire country. Proud of you, kak!!
And the
writing above inspired by an old fiction that I re-read just a moment ago,
disertai kutipan Gilbert koh dalam bukunya two baby hands yang cukup
menggambarkan how I feel annoyed- aka gemas—bout this phenomenal couple dalam
fiksi yang aku baca. I never mention the title of the fiction that I read
before, then, it’s 2019 and I’ll share it.
Jadi ini
novel mbak Bulan Nosarios, judulnya By your side, tentang mbak kania dan mas
erga yang demi tuhan aaakk *pen tau yaa? Makanya baca wkwkwk kalian bisa liat
review di internet boljug, one thing, it succeed inspires me write down the story
above. It impressed a lot, part : you care for me but love another, part
itu secara terangterangan gada di mention di novel sii cuma aku bikin
kesimpulannya gitu LOL. Well Inspirasi bisa dari mana aja kan wkwk LOL
I should
stop read ficton,right? But dude srsly I wanna be an author TT
Trus nih,
aku liat caption dari akun wedding *LOL* :
“I can’t
promise to love you perfectly, but I vow to love you messily, overwhelmingly,
inexorably”
Sweet
banget kan? Hmmmmm hahaha well I’ll stop
Juga nih, Belakangan
ini ada sesuatu yang sedikit nyelekit that I hate about my brother. It’s not
serious thing tho, but I think I have to correct him about this, what he thinks
on me, esp the way he criticize me. Haah. Dia menyebalkan. I’ll talk about this
later.
Sekian,
from me who stumble a lot, seringnya di handle bed skill lab, poor my tibia :)
*apasii
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